So...this is going to be a religious post. If you don't like reading about Jesus or about what one thinks about Jesus, stop here. I'm not here to proselytize...my goal is not to convert people with my blog. Just reflections from a dude like me.
I've upped my prayer game during this Lent. I mentioned in my last post that I am trying to pray more. It's been nice. Life has been trying at times, recently. Don't take that last sentence wrong. My life is still great and feel very lucky. Still...it's thrown some challenges our way. And, as any human being, I often ask Why. Boo hoo...why me?
When I think about Jesus I have a million questions. One of the biggest ones is Why?
I have 2 sons. I don't love anyone enough to sacrifice my sons. Nobody. So, I often ask why would any father "send his only son" to be tortured to death for someone else. Especially a bunch of rather ungrateful idiots who have continued to kill each other and the home they were given.
Why would God, who created the universe and who made the choice to close heaven to those he created, need to send his Son?
I don't have an answer to that question, still. The why Jesus needed to die question. But, I have come to terms with why Jesus was sent. Because God needed to be human.
It may be odd, but I find my faith strengthened by Jesus Christ: Superstar! It's one of my favorite shows! Not only for the ridiculous voices it brings out. But, I often like to say that I found my faith when I questioned it. This show likes to ask a lot of the same questions I have. "If you'd come today you could have reached a whole nation. Isreal in 4 BC had no mass communication." "Buddha was he where you're at, was he where you are? Could Mohammed move a mountain or was that just PR?" Many people find this sacrilegious. For me, it's spiritual.
Anyway, the song "Gethsemane" jumped out at me, today.
When I was younger, I thought this song was a bit whiney. Jesus is God. Why is he complaining so much? Well, he's not complaining. He's scared! He's sad. He's about to go through a hugely painful ordeal and death. And for what???? Will his message even live on, after this??? Everything he's done...will any of it matter?
And...he's pissed. "Why then am I scared to finish, what I started...what you started. I didn't start it!"
I love this song. This song helps me relate to Jesus. Thanks, Tim Rice and Andrew Lloyd Webber!!
Because God was human, we can better relate to Him. When I am sad, as I pray, I remember that God was sad. When I am angry, I remember that God was angry. If I ask why...I can remember that God also asked Why.
And, even though God was sad, angry, frustrated, scared, whatever...one thing stayed the same. God Loved. God loves us so much. God created us, yes. But, then he walked as one of us. He went through everything we go through and he did it all for us. For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son.
Ok, that's all. I'll post some baby pictures or complain about politics just to get back to normalcy around this blog.
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